Long Time, No See

So it's been a while again. And you know, I don't feel guilty at all. I've come to the conclusion that I don't really like posting stuff just for the sake of posting something. And well let's be honest, I'm not that interesting. Just look at the name of the blog. It'll tell you. Plus, I've been enjoying my summer, not being on the computer. Except at work. Where I have no choice but to be chained to the damn thing. I'm really kinda over it. But here are some random things just to let you know I'm still alive and just doing my thang. (That's right, I pulled out a "thang". What'cha gonna do about it? That's what I thought)

~ So pictures. Yeah, I still have them. Ready to be added to the posts that are sitting in my draft folder. You'll get them eventually. I promise. They've been delayed for a few reasons. One being that I'm really pretty unhappy with the quality. All of our cameras really just suck. I really want a new higher quality camera, but I just can't justify spending the cash just to take pics of the latest room I painted. The second is I keep changing little stuff here and there and then the pics I took last week are now obsolete, and I'm pretty sure everyone really wants to see the latest and the greatest. I imagine angry mobs at my door because the pics I posted are a week old and lacking the art I just hung up.  And three of course is the typical laziness.

~There are some big changes in store for the 2011 season of faire. I'm pretty excited, though there are a good amount of people who are not so excited and there are waves of drama flowing through the ranks. This is to be expected, so I just ignore what I can and laugh at the rest and move on with my life. I'll post more about things after some things are a little more solid.

~Chris and I have officially become pet parents. Our precious little cats have us wrapped around their psycho little paws, and the claws and in. They have chicken (canned kitty chicken) given to them twice a day with all their daily natural remedies to help keep they sensitive little tummy's happy. They get a half hour of play time in the evenings. And we spent a boatload of money getting stuff that promises to break your cat from peeing around the house. Which actually seems to be pretty worth it. Lady Jane has managed to not pee in the house in almost a month which is pretty much a miracle of biblical proportions.

~Chris and I are actually going on vacation. With a hotel room booked and paid for and everything. I'm not allowed to say when we are going because Chris is sure someone will somehow know where we live, beat up our housesitter, bust through the security doors and magically figure out the house alarm code and rob us. So, I'll have to save the when for after we get back. But anyway, I am super excited and so ready for the break! SO hopefully I'll have a recap and crappy pics to post soon.

~I've been an exercise fiend lately. I've been desperately trying to get my body to look anything but scary in a swimsuit for vacation. My diet is still wishy washy, but I think the exercise is starting to pay off. I haven't really lost any weight, which is annoying as heck, but things are starting to firm up, which is what is more important to me anyway. I stopped using Spark People all together for now. I got tired of it, but I do still keep mental track of my calories.

~This week Chris and I had our third wedding anniversary. I can't believe how quickly these three years has gone by. And though we've definitely had our moments overall it has been wonderful and I can't imagine another person I'd rather spend my life with. Plus he's super cute. ;)

~We're coming up on the big two year mark for our TTC fail. I'm not at all looking forward to this anniversary. I really never thought it would take this long. We've all but given up for now. I haven't charted in months and thanks to PCOS I really have no idea if I'm even ovulating. This is actually good because it's given me a much needed emotional break this summer. Infertility is just so full of negative crap. Anger, jealousy, sadness, disappointment, depression, emptiness, inadequacy and the list goes on and on. And after a while it gets really hard to separate that from everything else. So, the break has been good. This doesn't mean at all that it's not constantly on my brain, in my thoughts and that the tears don't come. I truly can't imagine ever totally letting go of this. I'm thinking though that this fall we'll get a little more aggressive about things. I do not want to wait another year. But at the same time, I really don't know if emotionally I can handle any more of this. If something like an IUI doesn't work, I'm afraid the despair is just going to be too much to bear. At least right now I don't have much to get my hopes up about.

~Work has been insane busy this summer. We had a huge inspection on base, and everyone has been freaking out. Thankfully after today it's over. I'll be so grateful to have things slow back down around here again.

That's all I can really think about for now. I'll really try to post more when I think about it, if I have something to post. I should have a vacation recap up soon. J